This week it’s been little steps. One foot forward.
Starting my morning off with the Nutrisystem Chocolate Protein Shake is my key to success. The 15 grams of protein fills me up and keeps me going until a mid-morning snack. It fuels me and keeps the cravings at bay. The mornings I drank this later in the morning I really struggled. I love this new addition. I can’t wait to try the coffee flavor.
I’m still struggling with journaling, but I’m still committed to the process.
Jake’s wedding is one week a way as I write this. I still haven’t decided what to wear. It’s caused a lot of crying. Mostly because almost 23 years ago when he was born, when I pictured him getting married, I was not matronly. I am looking forward to a picture of my son, his new wife and my other children, with me included to commemorate this special occasion.
This week as I’ve sobbed over my size I came to the realization that this is who I am. I am Jake’s mom. I am the mother to his siblings. I am a wife. I am a daughter. I am a grand-daughter, a sister, a friend and more. My weight doesn’t change these things.
I am not on this journey to be a size seven again. I am on this journey for me.
This battle has been my constant my entire life. I remember being “thicker” all through high school. After I had Jake I grew a little thicker. Then came Zac and the thickening continued…with every child I gave life too. I wouldn’t trade them or all the cookies and cakes we’ve baked, the moments that we celebrated over the stove.
There has never been a before and after picture. They all have been of me. Weight is a lot harder to mask than graying hair or a facial break-out.
I have a long way to go to “healthy”. I’m working on it and right now I’m embracing myself and my body for what we are.
I’m committed to Nutrisystem and I’m not standing on a soap box telling you this is easy. It isn’t. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Last week, I sat on the floor and cried because my weight is the only thing I’ve ever failed at. My husband said, “You haven’t failed yet unless you’re quitting. Are you?”
The answer is “Not a chance”.
This week I’m down .6 pounds. It’s small. But it’s all mine.
Monday I started exercising more. The good news is, what they say about riding a bike is true…you never forget. The bad news is, if you don’t ride for awhile, soreness is consuming!
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